‘I’m 22, I lost 22’: Gaza bombing survivor paints to grieve loss

Zainab al-Qolaq, who opened her artwork exhibition on Tuesday, misplaced 22 members of her household in an Israeli bombing final Could.

A lady stands in her art exhibition.
Zainab al-Qolaq's first artwork exhibition was a testomony to the lack of her household [Abdelkarim Abu Riash/Al Jazeera]

Gaza Metropolis – “I'm 22, I misplaced 22 folks”. Zainab al-Qolaq’s phrases opened her first artwork exhibition in Gaza, with 9 work that depict her tragic story.

Al-Qolaq misplaced 22 members of her household, together with her mom, her solely sister and two of her brothers, in the course of the Israeli army offensive on Gaza final Could.

On Could 16, 2021, an Israeli airstrike hit al-Qolaq’s residence, turning it into rubble and leaving her clinging to life underneath particles for 12 hours earlier than she was pulled out.

Prior to now yr, al-Qolaq has devoted herself to processing her grief by her artwork, and held a two-day exhibition on Tuesday and Wednesday.

Within the work, al-Qolaq illustrated the occasions of the day her home was bombed, in addition to the inner conflicts and struggles that she has skilled since.

“Every portray embodies a tragic second that I lived due to the Israeli occupation,” al-Qolaq advised Al Jazeera on the exhibition.

Al-Qolaq defined that the character of her drawings was embodying the “demise and warfare”, as she needs anybody who sees them to learn her emotions and perceive the painful moments she went by.

One of Zainab's paintings.
Al-Qolaq misplaced a number of members of her rapid household and 22 members of her prolonged household [Abed Abu Riash/Al Jazeera]

One explicit portray, a drawing of her household based mostly on a photograph taken throughout her brother’s college commencement, is near her coronary heart.

Within the portray, a few of al-Qolaq’s relations are depicted as garments and not using a physique.

“The portray signifies that what remained is just their empty garments, however the our bodies went away. The colors of this portray had been combined with tears,” al-Qolaq stated.

One other portray, she stated, depicted her situation right this moment as a corpse.

“I needed to say right here that eradicating me from underneath the rubble doesn't imply that the [internal] rubble has been eliminated and that I’m in a great situation,” al-Qolaq defined.

Whereas the artist has used her work to take care of her trauma, it could possibly nonetheless come again, at a second’s discover.

Through the exhibition she took quick breaks, in a separate room, to “be alone”.

Al-Qolaq’s mentors on the Euro-Med Human Rights Monitor advised Al Jazeera that al-Qolaq nonetheless refuses to return to her former residence, and rejected the thought of holding the exhibition there.

Visitors take photos of Zainab's paintings.
Dozens of holiday makers attended al-Qolaq’s two-day artwork exhibition in Gaza [Abdelhakim Abu Riash/Al Jazeera]

The bombing

After a brief break, al-Qolaq recalled the night time of the bombing.

“There was the sound of huge strikes, which shook the home. My mom advised me that the partitions of our residence had been shaking,” she stated.

“Seconds later I discovered myself underneath the rubble, we had been all underneath the rubble.”

Beneath the rubble, al-Qolaq waited, unaware that so many members of her household had been killed.

“They had been lengthy hours. I used to be solely interested by my relations. Who has misplaced consciousness, who was in want of assist?” she stated.

Regardless of the huge bombing, al-Qolaq dominated out the concept “one among them was killed”. “I used to be pushing exhausting any concept on this context.”

On her arrival at a hospital she was knowledgeable that members of her household had been killed within the bombing. They had been quickly buried, with al-Qolaq unable to attend and bid them a ultimate farewell.

Zainab, her father and her brother.
Al-Qolaq with the one survivors from her rapid household, her father Shokri and her brother Osama [Abdelhakim Abu Riash/Al Jazeera]

Artwork conveys emotions

By her facet as she recounted the horrible tales which have impressed her paintings was her father, Shokri.

The 50-year-old advised Al Jazeera that he has needed to conceal his emotions and be sturdy in entrance of his youngsters, however the actuality was that he was feeling the loss, simply as a lot as them.

He finally labored to persuade his daughter, who was already an artist earlier than the air strike, to select up her brushes once more.

“After the bombing, Zainab, who's a artistic artist and liked to attract, stopped fully. I attempted exhausting to persuade her to renew portray, and after a number of makes an attempt I succeeded,” Shokri stated.

“Portray is a chance for coping with issues mentally. Zainab’s work are crammed with unhappy emotions and specific the troublesome expertise she went by,” he added.

“Prior to now, Zainab’s drawings had been lively, love and hues, however now they're coated in darkness.”

Al-Qolaq advised Al Jazeera she used the “language of artwork” as it's a common language that individuals around the globe might perceive.

“I needed to convey my voice and my emotions, and for them to know the very troublesome moments I went by,” she stated.

“I do know that my loss is simply too nice to be compensated, however I consider that my mom and my brothers won't relaxation till their killers are dropped at account.”

Zainab looks to one of her paintings.
Al-Qolaq nonetheless suffers from the trauma of the bombing and the lack of her household [Abdelhakim Abu Riash/Al Jazeera]

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